Archive for September, 2011

I guess this is my main reason for starting a blog. I have babies on the brain in a major way. For as long as I can remember I have wanted to be a mother. I grew up in a household where there were always children around. I’m the type of person who ooh’s and aaah’s at random babies because I think they’re just that cute. I see everyone around me having babies and I think to myself “Why don’t I have a baby yet?” or “When’s it going to be my turn?”

I’m not stupid or irresponsible – I’ve always known I would wait until I was married to a man who was not only an amazing partner but would make an amazing father, and that we’d be financially able to provide our child(ren) with a better life than I had growing up. Don’t get me wrong – my parents did their best. We always had a roof over our heads, clothes on our backs, and food on the table. But I knew from a very young age that my parents sacrificed a lot to give us those things. I knew that my mom scrimped and saved and stretched every dollar. We always had the basics, and we had happy Christmases/birthdays/etc. But we could never afford things like music lessons or ballet classes or organized sports or summer camp. Those were luxuries I didn’t have growing up, and I always swore that my children would at least be able to have the opportunity to experience those things if they wanted. So I knew I wouldn’t rush into having children before the time was right.

Six years ago, I started dating that amazing man. We got married on August 27th of this year. On our honeymoon, we decided that when we got home we’d throw caution to the wind and let nature take its course. This is officially our first month of not preventing pregnancy. We’ve decided not to say we’re “trying” because that puts a lot of pressure on it. We’re not going to track temperatures or use test strips to see if/when I’m ovulating. We’re going to go on about our sex life as normal and see what happens.

We’ve also decided to keep this to ourselves for the time being. Hence the blog. I have one friend that I trust enough to share this with. But other than her, nobody knows we’ve stopped preventing. So our journey to parenthood may be one of the recurring topics discussed here.


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I’ve tried blogging before, but always gave up after a relatively short period of time…

It started back when you could make a profile on MSN, and update that sort of like a blog. I did that for a while. But that was linked to my regular email address. And most of the things I want to write about are things I don’t want to share with many of the nosy people in my life who would have taken the time to read what I had written.

There was the 365 Photo Journey blog. I probably could have actually made it through the entire 365 days if it hadn’t been for starting a new internship program that took over my life during the same time period that I had attempted the blog. Plus, honestly, my life’s not that interesting. There were some days when I seriously struggled for something worth taking a picture of, and it just served as a reminder of how mundane my life can be. Maybe one of these days I’ll give that one a go again. That was actually something I enjoyed. Hell, maybe I”ll even link it here. Who knows what the future holds?!

Then there was the weight loss blog. I did that for a few months – until I reached the goal weight that I wanted to reach for my wedding and honeymoon. After that, I got bored with it. I could have kept writing it, but lately I have no motivation to lose weight. Or even to maintain my weight loss for that matter. And, let’s face it, a blog about losing weight is terribly depressing if you’re not actually losing. So that was the end of that.

What I have decided to do instead is to write a very general blog. Maybe I’ll write about losing weight – if that’s where life takes me. Maybe I’ll post pictures – if I take any worth sharing. Or maybe I’ll just write about whatever is on my mind. Which is much more likely. Uncut. Uncensored. A place for my thoughts, musings, annoyances, triumphs, and trials.

Here it is.

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