Archive for July, 2012

Today is a bittersweet day for me.

While I was at work, my husband spent the day finishing the flooring and baseboards in our nursery and putting together all our nursery furniture. I had such a beautiful sight awaiting me when I arrived home this evening.



We haven’t put the bedding or decor in there yet, because we’re waiting until after our 3D ultrasound on Friday to confirm that we are, in fact, expecting a little boy before we open any of our boy-themed purchases.

However, today also marks the fourth anniversary of my mother’s death. So sitting in the glider in our newly finished nursery brought on a lot of emotions. It would have been an emotional time anyway – seeing our son’s nursery completed for the first time. But sitting there in that nursery, thinking about how my mom won’t be there for his birth or to see him grow up, was just so overwhelming.

I cried… and cried… and cried.

I’ve had a few breakdowns throughout the duration of the pregnancy when thinking about my mom. But nothing compared to how today felt. Having the nursery completed on the anniversary of her death was more emotion than I was prepared to handle. It has made me think a lot about how I’m going to feel as my due date draws near – I’m due the day after her birthday. November is going to be a very emotional month. 😦


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At least that was the reaction I got from my co-worker when I posted a Facebook status about wanting to knit a pair of baby booties for my unborn child.

But I was actually somewhat successful!

I started browsing around for a very easy pattern for knitting baby booties around 9:30 last night, and found one that only used the basic knit and purl stitches. After a brief YouTube refresher on how to purl and cast off, I was on my way to knitting my very first baby bootie! After having knit the first ten rows, I still wasn’t convinced that I wasn’t knitting a scarf. Haha. But I kept plugging away at it. By the time I went to bed last night, it was actually starting to look like maaaaybe it could be something. And I was pumped to get up this morning and finish it off!

Taa daaa!


It’s not exactly a professionally knit bootie. But I’m pleased with it!

Now, off I go in search of a slightly more advanced pattern to try!! 😀

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I came across this blog today, and read it from beginning to end. A photographer I follow on Facebook posted a link to it because he had been mentioned in one of the blogger’s recent posts. After reading the post, I realized that I actually “knew” the blogger. Well, I don’t know her, but I dated her husband’s brother for quite some time back in junior high. That was actually what intrigued me to read more of the blog – yup, I was being nosy. But after reading one or two posts, I fell in love. Why? Because I absolutely LOVE when people are honest about pregnancy and parenthood, and her blog is such a refreshing look at pregnancy, childbirth, and being a mother. So I was instantly addicted.

I hate when people are all mushy gushy about pregnancy and parenting. I get it – there are moments that are absolutely priceless and you seriously wouldn’t trade them for anything else in the world. But, let’s be honest, being a parent is work. It is hard work. You are responsible for the growth and development of a defenseless little creature who has no real means of communicating their needs. And you do this 24 hours a day with no reprieve. So there are bound to be moments (or entire days) when you want to just sit there, crying, tearing your hair out. And it’s nice to hear that side of things too. Well maybe “nice” isn’t the right word. But it’s good to know that there’s someone else out there who isn’t perfect and is struggling with parenthood and that maybe, juuust maaaybe, not being an instant pro is normal.

For instance, I approached a woman who came into my place of work last week and asked her how she liked her stroller. (She was using the same travel system that my husband and I have chosen for when our little guy arrives.) She told me that she loved the stroller – that it was easy to maneuver, really user-friendly, and her one-month-old had never seemed uncomfortable in it. She then proceeded to congratulate me on my pregnancy and wish me nine months that were not filled with nauseous hell like hers were. I told her that, unfortunately, I was nearly 23 weeks (at the time) and still feeling ridiculously nauseous. And she told me that she was on Diclectin for her entire nine months, felt like hell the entire time, and (in spite of being told by everyone and anyone she spoke to that she would forget about it the moment she held her baby) her son was a month old and she felt like she’d have to be stupid to forget the hell she’d been through. I wanted to kiss her. Seriously. I wanted to wrap my arms around this total stranger and give her a big juicy kiss for being so honest. Because, like her, all I’ve heard for my entire pregnancy is that (a) I will miss being pregnant when I no longer am, and (b) I will, the instant I hold my baby, forget all about the nausea and vomiting and pure torture that I went through to get him here. It made me feel significantly less guilty that there is at least one other mommy out there who admitted that pregnancy made her miserable and wasn’t likely to forget it any day soon.

So go check out the honest mommy blog I mentioned above, and feel free to leave links to any other honest mommy blogs you may know of!

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A while back, I posted on my Facebook “Nesting: condition of temporary pregnant insanity in which your hormones convince your body that you actually enjoy cleaning”.

Little did I know that it only gets worse as pregnancy progresses…

This morning I woke up with an uncontrollable desire to clean all our windows. And I do mean clean. I took all the screens out and scrubbed the windows clean, and then I power scrubbed every nook and cranny of all the vinyl casings with a freakin’ toothbrush. I also scrubbed the kitchen from top to bottom and cleaned out some of the cabinets, did a few loads of laundry, and cooked supper.

Tonight I’m exhausted.

But I’m also hoping to feel just as energized tomorrow because I’m already thinking of more things I’d like to do. If this kind of energy stays around for the remainder of the pregnancy, the house will be sparkling by the time the baby gets here.

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… but I’ve actually been feeling pretty good for the past week or so. The night of my last post was terrible – I ended up being awake until 2am with severe nausea and vomiting. However, since then, I’ve actually been feeling kind of great. I’ve had more energy, and my nausea seems to be passing off again.

Of course, now that I’ve said that, I’ll probably be sick all week. Haha.

Well, since I haven’t done this in a few weeks, here goes:

How Far Along: 23 weeks & 2 days! 🙂

How Big Is Baby: according to ‘The Bump’ he’s anywhere from 10-12 inches long and weighs between 12 and 21 ounces. Since he was already measuring 12 ounces almost a month ago at my ultrasound, I’m willing to guess he’s closer to the upper end of the range.

Total Weight Gain: I haven’t had a doctor’s appointment in a couple of weeks, but (at that point) I was up six pounds from my pre-pregnancy weight.

Stretch Marks: Nothing yet thankfully.

Maternity Clothes: Nothing new since last post. But it has been super warm here for the last few weeks, and I’ve started wearing my flowy summer dresses around the house a lot.

Sleep: I haven’t been sleeping as much as I had been. I’m finding it harder to get to sleep at night because of how warm it’s been.

Best Moment(s) of the Week: we have had another good baby week. Toys R Us had a big baby sale, and we got our crib bedding and all the accessories for Alexander’s nursery on sale for 25% off! They also had the stroller we wanted on sale for $100 off, so hubby’s grandmother ordered that for us since that’s what she wanted to buy for the baby. Hubby has been slowly making more progress on the nursery preparations. And I’ve been feeling Alexander move around a lot more lately, which I absolutely love. Plus we went out home to visit our families one day this past week, and my dad made me a batch of homemade bread! YUM!

Craving(s): nothing in particular this week. I’ve just been feeling a lot hungrier lately.

Food Aversion: nothing that I can think of, but I could take or leave most proteins.

Symptoms: they’ve been slowly subsiding. But I have been feeling some round ligament pain as things have been stretching out.

Movements: ohhhh yessss! 🙂 And he’s getting more predictable about when he moves too. Like, I know I’ll feel him for a while after I get into bed at night.

What Do I Miss: sleeping on my back. If you had asked me before pregnancy whether or not I slept on my back, I probably would have told you that it very rarely happens. But, now that I have to make a conscious effort not to sleep on my back, I end up there a dozen times a night. And, of course, it’s the most comfortable position there is. Haha.

Belly Button In or Out: In. And it better stay that way. 😛

Wedding Ring On or Off: On. Except at night.

Gender: it’s a boy!

Looking Forward To: Hopefully finally feeling good for a little while. And, as always, meeting our little man in November. 🙂

Next Appointment: not until closer to the end of the month – just a routine checkup.

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I’m pretty sure that my ribs have started the process of expanding to accommodate my ever-growing uterus. I woke up on one of my many nightly trips to the bathroom, feeling like someone had been kicking me in the ribs all night. HARD. They are so tender and sore this morning. Seriously, if I had spent then entire night doing an abdominal workout, my ribs wouldn’t hurt so much.

And I’m getting so sick of having to sleep on my side. What they fail to tell you about having to sleep on your side in the later part of your pregnancy is that, by the time sleeping on your side is necessary (as not to have your giant pregnant belly crush your aorta and cut off the flow of blood to your body) sleeping on your side is also very uncomfortable. The weight of that giant pregnant belly is not well supported by sleeping on your side. Basically the only way to feel comfortable is on your back, and you’re not allowed to do that.

Oh, the joys.

Have you guessed yet that I’m having a very cranky pregnant day? Haha.

In all seriousness though, I’ve been feeling pretty good for the last couple of weeks. The nausea seems to have died off a little bit (and been replaced with an insatiable hunger :P), I have a little more energy than previously, and I *knock.on.wood* haven’t had any headaches recently. I’ve also been feeling our little guy move more and more frequently, which is a nice reassuring feeling. His movements are even getting somewhat predictable now – for example, I know that from the time I lay down at night until about midnight, he’s going to kick up a storm. His daddy was even able to feel him kicking for the first time one night last week, and that was probably my favorite moment of the entire pregnancy thus far. I wish I had been able to capture the look on his face, because it was so precious and sweet.

Actually, the further I get into this pregnancy, the more adorable my husband becomes. I’m seriously falling in love with him all over again just watching him prepare for the arrival of our son. He is definitely not the most handy guy around the house, and usually enlists help from his dad to complete any home repair/renovation projects we undertake. Even something as simple as hanging a picture.  But he is working so hard to do all the work on Alexander’s nursery himself. (Or at least the things he can do himself.) It’s so sweet to watch all the effort he’s putting into creating the perfect place to bring our son home to. I’ve been taking a ton of pictures for Alexander’s pregnancy scrapbook, because I can’t wait to show our little guy all the hard work his daddy did in preparation for his arrival! 🙂

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